心灰意冷……
I am feeling awfully bad.
How bad my work is so as I do not deserve an email reply?
Every time I try to make myself have hope of the situtaion, cheer up and work hard, something happened to make me feel really disappointed.
This place made my very very upset, and desperate.
Thd bad thing is that I can not leave here until I get the degree.
I would like to cry for a while, if I can find an approriate place.